Stressed? It's that season!
We're 6 months away from the big day and all I can think about is how stressed I am. Awkwardly enough, for awhile now I've felt like we have had a handle on the wedding planning but all of life's other elements are overwhelming, especially my graduate program. It's basically left me with no time or energy. When I'm not in school I'm doing work for school. Spending time with Matt has come down to sitting beside him or in the same room but totally checked out mentally. How am I supposed to plan a wedding when we can't even spend 5 minutes together?
It takes its toll and I feel like I need to press the reset button. How do we get back to those times when we were so excited to see each other? When I didn't snap at him for no apparent reason? When I wasn't asleep at 10 pm and awake again before 7 am?
I think every now and then you have to re-evaluate your priorities. On Friday night I had the chance to go out with a bunch of friends from my program but instead I took the night off and Matt and I ordered some dinner and spent some time together. The TV was off and the Christmas lights were on and it was cozy and lovely even if it was only for an hour or so. We even started registering for gifts online.
He helps me realize life is too short. Matt is WAY more important to me than my assignments and being totally stressed about them. It's hard being in a relationship and it's hard to be in one and be in a labour intensive program and plan a wedding. I mean, we don't have it hard by any means but I just thought I'd share my troubles with you in case you might be in the same boat!
Bottom line, wedding planning and relationships are not always as lovey-dovey as they make it seem!